Perfection, You Are Not.

Not EVERYTHING you do has to be perfect.  You contradict yourself ALL the time.  Sometimes, it makes me want to scratch my insides out.  I get that very irritating feeling inside of me.  One of these days I might just burst.    It most likely will NOT be pretty.  I am definitely dreading that day.  I wish you could see your ways and change them.  Then again, not everyone has the insight I do.  You lie to others to make yourself seem better than you really are.  You make me feel better about exaggerating just a little tiny bit.  My lies seem like cupcakes compared to your ghastly, grotesque rot of lies.  Maybe one day, just maybe, things will be different.  You will get that slap of reality in the face.  Alas, I do not see that day coming any time soon.  Very unfortunate.  I don't know how much longer I will last holding onto this information.   You aren't as great as you might think.  As a person you are, but the little things you claim to do, are not.  Life is to be lived.  Life is not there for you to freak out with every tiny thing that isn't EXACTLY how you want it.  Nothing is perfect, your life isn't either.  Your little freak outs WILL cost you one day.  Maybe then you will see the wrong doing of your ways.  I highly doubt it.