I am frustrated.

I wanna dig a hole! And live in it! And eat bacon worms!!

Boys are so gah!!!

They always say they're different. Most of them aren't. Or im just not attracted to you!

So sick and tired..

So many hypocrites. I am one too. But a small one. I wonder what you say about me with how much you talk about others.. And pretend your friendships are legit.. I wonder where you went and why you changed your feelings. It was probably because you had too many girls and not enough feelings. Why did you say I was too good for you and then disappear. I obviously wasn't good enough. You saw me and never talked to me again. Thanks for that knock of self-esteem!

I think I'm done...

trying to find friends.

I'm not cut out for it.

Perfection, You Are Not.

Not EVERYTHING you do has to be perfect.  You contradict yourself ALL the time.  Sometimes, it makes me want to scratch my insides out.  I get that very irritating feeling inside of me.  One of these days I might just burst.    It most likely will NOT be pretty.  I am definitely dreading that day.  I wish you could see your ways and change them.  Then again, not everyone has the insight I do.  You lie to others to make yourself seem better than you really are.  You make me feel better about exaggerating just a little tiny bit.  My lies seem like cupcakes compared to your ghastly, grotesque rot of lies.  Maybe one day, just maybe, things will be different.  You will get that slap of reality in the face.  Alas, I do not see that day coming any time soon.  Very unfortunate.  I don't know how much longer I will last holding onto this information.   You aren't as great as you might think.  As a person you are, but the little things you claim to do, are not.  Life is to be lived.  Life is not there for you to freak out with every tiny thing that isn't EXACTLY how you want it.  Nothing is perfect, your life isn't either.  Your little freak outs WILL cost you one day.  Maybe then you will see the wrong doing of your ways.  I highly doubt it.

SO...

new blog means new topics/subjects/rantings etc.

I don't like liars or hypocrites.  Yet, I seem to know a lot of them.  Maybe it is because I look too far into people?  Or the fact that I've been lied to a lot by different people.  I, myself, have tried my hardest to be upfront with people, and not hide things, or say one thing and do the other.  I wish others could do the same.  At least be able to hide things better I guess.  Posting things on FB or Twitter isn't secret.  Anyone can see what you write.  Especially if you are friends with everyone.  I just get SOO very frustrated with everyone lately.  Maybe I need an attitude check, or maybe everyone around me needs one.
I'm also sick of people who have to make sure they look good in front of others, like.. I don't mean looking good, but lying about one thing to make someone think you are totally different then you are..  Or saying you are doing one thing, yet not be doing that, or something entirely different.. Talking yourself up to seem better or more involved then you are.  Saying one thing to one person, then going to someone else and saying something extremely opposite.  People WILL find out about it.  They will make a deal out of it.  Stop being stupid, let's get smart.